I love gadgets. Tools with interesting settings; clamps used in gluing boards together; I loved crushing small things with my Dad’s vise. More technical tools like his old Brownie camera—I kept messing with the open-close things on the front. And the tension on my Mom’s sewing machine. She just couldn’t keep it adjusted right (who, me?) And her music box just seemed to be overwound all the time, hmmm. Don’t know how the ballerina’s tutu got peanut butter on it…
I used to snitch my Dad’s mechanical drafting set in its black velvet case and readjust all the screws, try to write with the pencil leads in their little case…yes, I’m the cause of the second generation of gray hairs on his head. I enjoyed the way the lock opened and closed, like a mysterious secret. Not that I knew how to USE any of these tools. They were just fun to play with.
Just like his binoculars. A very finely tuned instrument—at least until I got hold of it. I would try walking around while looking through them, putting my hand out to touch things as they drew near. How many doorways have you encountered in this fashion? After a few upsets, I tried turning them around and looking through the other end. That was frightening. Do NOT try this at home, you’ll walk out in front of traffic, fall off a ledge…and step in doggy doo, so say the very least.
Sometimes that’s the feeling I get when I’m trying to follow God’s leading. I want to see things that are meant to come to me in their own time (in HIS time)—yet I want to see them right now. And when I keep trying to put my hand out and reach them to bring them closer, I only end up running into things that were right there all along; in fact, I should be taking care of them right now in the present. Yet other times my lack of focus (or actually, my “far-off” focus) has me walking faster to get closer–to something that’s never going to get closer as long as my focus is out of whack.
That’s the cool thing about God that I forget. Why can’t we learn things ONCE with Him? You see, I do know that
“ they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” —-from Isaiah 40:31
Nor shall they run into door jambs.